Alright. I've made up my mind. Now... how should i put it ? "Won't be trying to waste other's time to get a reply for myself anymore" sounds kinda good. Past 5years, i've always been trying to get my friends to talk to me by constantly talking to them. Looking back, as usual its a freaking desperate action to not feel lonely like at home. Thats why i have decided, if they wanna talk to me, they start they conversation with me. That way i know i won't be an annoyance to them. How i feel doesn't matter to anyone anyway, anyhow. So... yea. Fuck trying