Gradually accepting the facts. But definitely won't be able to accept all of it. Some part of me would find the reason to hang on. Pathetic. People treating me like they don't know me and yet i do all these bullshit. Pathetic to the extent that its friggin's hilarious hahahahahahah. What a joke

Feeling like a complete pest when i have to text others TWICE to get a reply.

Once again, i have screwed up ANOTHER friendship... People that know me really deserve a better friend

Being an asshole, a jerk. I have like said so many "Im really Sorry" and yet again, i have to say stuff, do stuff that make people dislike me or even, hate me. This is why i really don't deserve it when my friends are nice to me. Im not worth youe kindness.

Thats it. Friendship ends here. Goodbye dude. Nice having you as my bro for 2years

P.S reader(s). The "you" i say in almost all my posts aren't always refering to her alright. Some of the "You"s have been refering to my female "friends", my guy "friends" or family members so... yea. Don't read too much into stuff and waste your time on hating me for posting stuff that you might know that it isn't true.

Oh and by the way, i don't expect my friends to read my blog and hence i really pour my feelings out here. If you know me in real life, consider yourself luckily to find out that i have a blog. And all this shit i post, is from MY point of view. I don't know the whole thing so don't hate me just because what i said isn't really the truth but... hey, if you all read everything and decided to hate me because its easier for you all than asking whats wrong, so be it. Thanks and probably goodbye, thanks for hating me reader(s)

Crying whenever im alone, thinking of how much things have changed because of my stupid heart that fell and my fingers that sent what was sent. I'll bet tears from my eyes so far, if collected, could literally form a mini river under my bed. Now i can't really text 'cos of my right shoulder. Its even affecting me picking up stuff.. hope the tumor-like lump shown in the XRay isn't cancer.. but even if it is, i might as well be dead anyway. Good for you, good for everyone. I'm always an eye sore, an extra, a calefare, gate crasher, unwanted company to all my "friends". When theu have no one to talk to, feeling bored, THEN they'll turn to me for "help". I really am tired of my life now... nothing to look forward to like during Secondary school days where going to school is a joy because i get to see my 12yr friend Enver and... stupidly, looking forward to see you. Now, i have to just leave it up to fate. Will we end up at the same place ? Or would i be successful in going there and leaving here while you are successful in leaving there and coming here ? :\ I really wonder just when can i really give up hope and move on seriously. I really wonder. *Huge Sigh* Alright, gotta head to bed now, have to report for work by 9am tomorrow and last till 3pm,before knocking off and head to NUH for a further examination on my right shoulder.

Gets really worried when you aren't feeling well or sleep kinda late but who am i to you to care anyway ? No rights

Talked a little, even for just 5mins, and it got built back up again. Then when i don't get a reply, things got shattered to pieces... likr AGAIN. This building back and shattering time and time again is seriously killing me. Feeling this way is my own fault anyway so there is no one i can blame and i have no rights to blame anyone.