Telling myself not to go there to see how stuff is going for ... 'cos if i wanna kill everything, i HAVE to stop caring so much but... all these are just talk. I cant do it. Just cant. The stuff that was done was so obvious to keep me away. How i know ? Well from MY point of view again, I admitted to visiting there to find things out because apparently, i care too much. Gahh oh well. 2 more days and JC starts. I'll be forgotten and i hope that would mean a better life since the pest is no longer around. To end things off, well at least i admitted stuff i wouldnt dare admit before so... thats a first. Why did i do it here ? Well because i know nobody that knew me in real life would visit my blog 'cos i dont deserve them. So... yea. Am i being too harsh on myself ? Its to try and kill whatever thats in me and tell myself there isnt anyone i can actually depend on.