So, everything was so high up there in 2011. Then i have to make our friendship awkward by confessing to you. Then after that, i slowly see the way you replied my texts, telling me that you wanna stay away from me because you dont want me to waste my time on you since you dont like me back. Things worsen in 2012, a really crucial year to have this type of problem in my heart. We were so awkward in school, even just by sitting beside each other coincidentally during assembly (Well thats how I felt when we were beside each other). We were no longer talking as much as in 2011 and i know im the reason, and then moving on to Farewell Assembly. I finally have the courage to ask you for a photo together :') Was super happy that whole day when you said okay to my request despite the awkwardness. So happy with Uzair because both of us got the photo we have long wanted to take with the special someone. And then comes the study period, it was that timing that i realise how far worse our friendship has gone because how you tried to avoid seeing me. I hated appearing infront of you because of that as i didnt want to be the reason why people have a bad day. The angry tweets about not wanting to see someone really hit me spot on. I was really afraid that our friendship would end like that.. It was also that time that i have decided to not try so hard to win your heart but more of just trying to be friends again, even up till now. I am afraid of texting you too much because again, i know you didnt want to talk to me as much anymore. I was afraid of being an annoyance, a pest that keepa clinging onto you everyday, afraid that one day you would hate me instead of not feeling anything for me. Then comes O Levels, i was self comforting that i wont be bugging you if i were to ask you school related stuff but when i slowly change the conversation's topic, i sensed a little coldness and so i just texted " Ohh thank you thank you :) Shall not disturb you already. Jiayous and byebye :)" relunctantly. When you said "you should thank me properly only after you have received your results", i was determined to do well. Half is because of my own future, the other half is because i could finally say somethinf to you face to face. During the examinations period, i couldnt sleep well because of both anxiety as well as worried that you might be staying up way too late to study and that you would fall sick. Os ended, we went back to talking so little again. Prom night, i really wanted to go to the venue together with you but... i held back my urge to ask you because i didnt want you to feel uncomfortable with me asking about that. I really wanted to take another photo with you again when everything has ended because you were really gorgeous that day but i just didnt have the courage as i felt im not good enough to be in the same picture as you...... ( To be continued tomorrow morning)...